Dealing With The Loss Of My Mother

Losing A Loved One Poem

It’s been a little bit over a year and a half since my mom passed away. (I’m already crying as I write this…) Lately I’ve been thinking about how I’m dealing with the loss of my mother. Some days are fine, and other days like today I just miss my mother so much. So, so much! I wish we were able to have one last conversation. I remember sitting next to her bed in the hospital hoping and praying that she would wake up from her coma-like state. I don’t know if that would have necessarily made a difference in things, in fact, perhaps that would have been worse. Though she never woke up again, I remember holding her hand and it felt as if though she squeezed my hand at one point. That made me feel slightly better because I felt like she knew I was there with her.

I still can’t believe she is gone. There are so many days I grab my phone and feel like calling her and well, I can’t. Some days I have amazing news I want to share with her, or some days I’m stressed out and want to talk to her, but I can’t. And I know…I know..some of you are going to say, I can still talk to her…and I do. But I just miss her physically being here. I know she’s still around. I know she’s watching over Gabby and myself, but I wish she were still alive. I feel like a part of me died with her.

I’ve cut so many people out of my life since she passed away. Some purposely and some unintentionally. It blew my mind to see who truly cared and well, who didn’t. Made me sad as well. Sometimes you realize friends care more about you then your own family. I’m learning to forgive because why hold on to resentment? I’m not 100% there yet, but I’m working on it. I’ll talk further about forgiveness in a later post.

I don’t feel like socializing at times. If you’re friends with me, or follow me on social media, I know you always see me attending events. Having fun…but that’s because I’m a blogger, and well it’s a part of my job. And I love it, don’t get me wrong. I love it! But for me to just go and hang out, I pretty much have to force myself. I feel like such a bad friend at times. I make plans and don’t follow through with them. If you’re one of those friends and you’re reading this, I’m sorry.

Yesterday a friend of mine hit me up, and pretty much told me I HAD TO go out and hang out with her. I’m surprised she even hit me up because I bailed on her so many times! Sorry D! And I’m so glad I went out! I had a great time! I realized the slump I was in and the need to snap out of it. I know my mom wouldn’t want me being as depressed as I have been.  It’s just hard at times, but I’m going to work on it. I need to live my life as well.

Gabby misses my mom as well. It breaks my heart when she brings her up. But at least she’ll always have great memories of her grandma. And well, I’m glad my mom got to meet her 1st grandchild at least. I wish she were around to see Gabby grow up, but I know she’s watching over her, over us…

Silver Locket

Have you ever lost a loved one? How did you deal? Does it ever get any better?

It’s insane how fast the months, the years go by…
I don’t know if I’ll ever feel 100% again, but I’m working on it.
Love you and miss you mom!

xo,Virginia aka Genie
(That’s what my mom called me…)

“I’ll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I’ll see you again.”

Sprint Mom Ambassador: My Thoughts On The Sprint LG G4! #SprintMom #IC

I participated in an Ambassador Program on behalf of Influence Central for Sprint.
I received a Sprint device to facilitate my review as well as a promotional item to thank me for my participation.

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I love taking pictures! There is nothing like capturing a moment in time and being able to look back and remember those moments. Also, as a mom I naturally take a million pictures of my daughter! And well, since blogging is my job I take pictures pretty much 24/7. I was over the moon when I was chosen to be a Sprint Mom Ambassador and couldn’t wait to test out the Sprint LG G4!

If you love taking pictures, then the Sprint LG G4 is perfect for you! The LG G4 is the first smartphone from Sprint with a 16MP Rear-Facing camera and an 8MP Front-Facing selfie camera. That’s a a total of 24 megapixels of crisp photo clarity! I am blown away at how great the pictures come out using the Sprint LG G4! The quality is so great that I don’t even bother carrying my DSLR camera around as much anymore because I know my LG G4 takes great pics! My daughter and I also love the gesture shot feature when taking selfies or “us-ies”, just raise up your palm, then make a fist and it’ll activate the camera to take a pic. It makes taking selfies so much easier!

Check out some of the awesome pictures I’ve taken with my LG G4:

My Little Pony Outfit
One of Gabby’s many #OOTD’s!

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Delicious Chicken Parm!
It was pretty dark in the restaurant and look how great my pic turned out!

Liberty Bell Selfie

Selfie with the Liberty Bell!

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Selfie!

Asides from taking amazing pictures, the LG G4 has an affordable family phone. With Sprint Lease, the LG G4 is $18 per month for 24 months and with a Sprint Family Share Pack plan, a family of 4 can share 20GB of data and get unlimited talk and text for only $100 per month. Pretty awesome deal, right?! Check out the Sprint Store Locator to find the location closest to you!

I also wanted to talk to you all about Sprint Drive First. Sprint Drive First is a FREE app available on the phones like the SprintLG G4 which sends calls to voicemail and silences email and text alerts when a vehicle reaches 10mph. It’s an awesome app for those of you with teens! Features include ‘personal feedback’ and ‘parenting mode’ which help track miles driven, and lock or enable certain apps. It’s nice to know there are ways to stay safer while out on the road.

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Texting and driving is one of the most dangerous distracted driving actions. It blows my mind how many people still text & drive! DoSomething.org, which is one of the largest organizations for young people and social change, and Sprint have partnered up and launched the Thumb Wars campaign to prevent young people from texting and driving! Thumb Wars is now in it’s 5th year! Thumb Wars encourages young people to use the power of their thumbs in a fun way to prevent their friends from texting and driving! Check out ThumbWars.org for more info!

Thanks so much for stopping by!
If you’re looking for a great new phone then I highly recommend the Sprint LG G4.
Trust me, you are going to love it!
And remember, don’t text and drive!!!

Mom In Love Forever

BBQ Ribs! Quick & delicious to make! #GetFiredUpGrilling #GetUpandGrill #WeaveMade

This post is part of a social shopper marketing insight campaign with Weave Made Media®,Smithfield® and Farmland®, but all my opinions are my own.

#weavemade #GetUpandGrill#GetFiredUpGrilling http://my-disclosur.es/RgFrEH.

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Summer is my favorite season! I love being outdoors and enjoying the lovely weather. Something else I love- is being able to grill! One of my favorite things to grill is ribs! Ribs are quick, easy and most of all delicious. Definitely one of my favorites to make for my family! I recently stopped by my local Walmart and picked up some Smithfield® St. Louis Style Pork Spareribs.

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To add a little latin flavor to our ribs, the mister marinated the ribs with some sofritoadobo and sazon! I throw adobo and sazon on everything! It reminds me of my moms cooking. If you can, try and marinate the ribs over night! I couldn’t wait for the ribs to be done. Luckily they don’t take too long to cook!

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Almost done!

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Yum! Slathered the ribs with some homemade Tamarind BBQ Sauce before taking them off the grill!

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The Smithfield® St. Louis Style Pork Spareribs came out so good! Quick to make and so tasty! After spending a fun summer day outdoors, it’s nice to know I can come home and make a quick, easy and delicious meal on the grill! I have to run to Walmart and get some more ribs soon!

Be sure to visit and enter the Get Fired Up Grilling website/sweepstakes www.getfiredupgrilling.com for additional recipes and tips from BBQ Pitmasters Moe Cason and Tuffy Stone. Also, enter to win a trip to the American Royal BBQ contest and other really great grilling prizes! 

What are your favorite things to grill?  Any delicious rib recipes to share?

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